'When you stare long into the abyss, the abyss will also stare into you ...' [a]
Nakamura has a fascination for staring death in the face; provided it's the death of another and that individual is deserving of their fate having been found guilty by a court of law of some grievous crime, such as murder.
Without getting into the rights and wrongs of capital punishment, most societies consider the unlawful and intentional killing of another human being to be an extremely serious matter, deserving of harsh punishment, be that a life behind bars, or state-sanctioned execution.
In Nakamura's mind, murder is always an act of malicious evil whilst judicial homocide is morally justifiable and also a social necessity when considered in terms of deterrence, for example. And so, he feels he has a sacred duty to witness the death of criminals and the desire to do so is one that often arises within him:
"Nakamura's pride and joy in witnessing the death penalty, which he had felt on several occasions, and which he had told his friends and even his wife about, was on the rise again. He felt as if something special, something powerful, something stern and unmovable, like divine punishment itself, resided within him." [b]
And yet, on the morning of the execution Nakamura often felt a level of physical anxiety that went beyond nervous anticipation; his entire body would begin to tremble in an unpleasant and uncontrollable manner. And his weak cup of tea "tasted of nothing" [91].
His wife obviously notices, but when she tries to speak to him and tell him of her dislike for the whole business, he grows angry and wants to strike her.
"'Of course, I don't like it either,' he said. 'But if
everyone felt that way, it would be easier for warmongers
and criminals. You have to choose one side or the other.
Either we, as citizens, will make society safe, or we will
leave them to their own devices.'" [92]
Having said this, he reassured himself somewhat: "And he also
felt that he was a hero, a hero who fulfilled his duty
without regard for his own interests" [92]. His wife, however, is less than convinced; she knows that there's a real and often terrible price to pay for repeatedly witnessing executions, as studies have shown and many have testified [c].
Nakamura boards his early morning train. Sat opposite him were a couple of businessmen, two young men in uniform, and "a beautiful, drowsy young
woman" [93], who particularly fascinates him:
"Her colour
gave him a certain masculine feeling. The girl's eyes, which
were a kind of melancholy grey, made him think of the
rumpled bedclothes she had just woken up on. [...] Nakamura was
so busy looking at her eyes, her breasts, and the rich lustre
of her hair, that he almost forgot where the train was
heading." [94]
Almost: but not quite. His intrusive and sexualised staring [d] ultimately doesn't distract him from his sacred duty of attending the gallows. For the thought of an imaginary fuck was not as thrilling to him as the prospect of an actual death. It was the latter that filled him with "a certain dark and powerful force" [93] and made his erection as hard as a judge's hammer.
He arrives at the prison: he takes his seat: he awaits the arrival of the condemned: "He was a young man. He was tall. Nakamura could not take his eyes off this man's body" [96], unless it was to look at his "youthful, slightly
beaming, blushing face" [96].
And when the condemned man's eyes meet his own, "Nakamura thought he saw something beautiful shining in
the man's small eyes like a flash of lightning" [96].
He shivers and feels himself lightheaded as the trapdoor opens, closing his eyes in a kind of ecstasy as "the sound of people’s voices whispering" [97] echoed around the room.
Afterwards, Nakamura is desolate, his eyes glowing "as if fevered" [98], or having ejaculated.
Consummatum est ...
Nakamura was obliged to sign a note
saying that he had witnessed the execution. Although unable to think clearly, he felt himself filled with the silent knowledge of
death; his avaricious curiosity satisfied (for the moment).
Notes
[a] Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil, IV. 146.
[b] Chōkōdō Shujin, 'The Condemned', in Nakajimi Says and Other Stories (The Tripover, 2025), pp. 90-91. All future page references in this post are to this text.
[c] Research suggests that witnessing executions - in whatever capacity - can have a profound and often traumatic impact on individuals, affecting their mental and emotional well-being. Indeed, even those who facilitate the executions and hardened journalists who report on them, often experience significant levels of stress, leading to nightmares, insomnia, panic attacks, and a sense of detachment from reality or other people.
Thus, the idea put forward by proponents of capital punishment that executions bring closure and allow healing is questionable to say the very least.
[d] As far as I know, it is not yet a crime to look at someone in a public space, but so-called intrusive staring is now regarded as a form of harassment (particularly if it's an unwanted form of sexual leering) and so can get you arrested and possibly banged up.
To be fair, I can see how one might be made to feel uncomfortable if one is watched and evaluated by a stranger, but I don't have much time for arguments framed within the context of objectification; no one is dehumanised by being looked at or lusted after. Ultimately, I suppose whether or not staring is a genuine concern depends on context, the intent of the individual staring, and the sensitivity of the person being looked at.
This post is for Soko and Rebecca.